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by anon

I would never hurt myself, and I have always been very certain about that. But I would very much not mind dying.
It's something I've thought about for over ten years now. I would say "struggled with" but it's not really a struggle at all.

I wish I could go into great detail about recent events. If I do, it sounds like this is all over some boy.

I guess I will say that I met a boy several years ago. We had lunch on a whim and I fell in love with him and have loved him since, through years of him not speaking to me, through his loving me in the same way, a relationship, fights, learning, and his insistance that he loves me as strongly as he did before but that even through the learning we can never be together.

But that he wouldn't be opposed to making out as long as there were no strings attached.


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11-04-11 20:26
I suggest that you find someone to talk to whether that person is a teacher, social worker, priest, counselor, kind stranger, friend, family member or whatever. Elowel is a good outlet for these emotions, and I welcome you to continue to use elowel as an outlet. With that in mind, it is important to note that we're not able to give you what you need. Find a way to satisfy what is missing or accept help from others who may be able to find a way to satisfy what is missing. I hope you find yourself struggling less and feeling satisfied more.
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